I wish I had a brother.

I wish I had a brother

So then maybe I’d get it more than I do 

By it I mean the world and how the boys and the girls and the men and the women are supposed to be getting along

It seems like the girls and the girls and the theys and the thems have achieved greater, safer, more full love

Not without its challenges - massive challenges - 

Of being recognized and respected in a world that was accidentally turned binary

Popping out of that bubble and being the being you were designed to be

And not only that but then to turn to another and offer yourself and your heart and your mind as a lover - what a beautiful feat.

I wish I had a brother

So I could have a boy as a friend

Instead of having all boyfriends and guessing what that is supposed to mean

A boy as a friend who would talk to me, fight with me, play with me. 

Do hard stuff with me. Go on adventures with me. Make stuff up with me. 

Be mad at me. Make up with me. Depend on me and be depended on by me. 

When it's quiet, when it's loud. That sibling sense of permanence and trust. 

Maybe then my boyfriends would make more sense to me.